i woke up early today to finally get my driver's license. there was this issue last... oh... 2 months ago... or more... when i tried to have my license renewed, where the LTO person told me my ID was a fake. big shocker since i never dealt with any fixers or the like when i trudged through the slow and grueling process of getting your license, true to the system. and here i was having this old lady shoving my ID up wherever end most people say they do (would have been easier on me if she was young and cute). *evil stare*. anyway she told me that she can't process this, and that i had to head to LTO and do the whole thing all over again. gracious me, i'm filled with joy and anticipation. orz.

i forced myself to sleep early due to multiple reasons, this task included, and woke up at the wee hour of 5am. left home at around 715 and got to LTO east ave. branch close to 815 due to the horrible morning rush along commonwealth ave. the lazy employees opened their stations at around 9am, and i did the whole shiz of paying, waiting, picture taking, waiting, moving to the lecture room to review and wait, waiting, taking the test, waiting, moving to the practical exam waiting area to wait and do some more waiting, waiting, driving around, waiting, and lo and behold it was 1210pm. *internal supernova of frustrations* and so i had to slug it out with the hordes of people invading the fast food chains (namely jollibee) until the clock hit 100pm. and even the jollibee experience was HORRIBLE, but that's another story. anyway i got back to the LTO and after another hour of appreciation for government efficiency, i finally got to be reunited with my driver's license. *tear*.

i went home, took a breather, then i went out again to get my brother enrolled in his master's course in UP. he, along my sister and mom, got jettisoned to the US for some seminar for their work. so i got stuck with the enrollment and i-can't-attend-classes-yet errands for my bro. i tried to leave his letter at the environmental eng'g dep but the staff lady told me to give it to the respective professors of each class personally, making me beam with effervescent joy that i would have to return and do more errands for the rest of the week. then i went to pay for his tuition, but then the OUR payment lines already got cut off (it was just 330 wtf). i took my chances with the FC landbank but they didn't seem to notice the quiet desperation and anguish swelling up beneath my puppy eyes, and shooed me away. *tear*. so i went for the last option which is the SC PNB and was utterly relieved to find it still open... after noticing the mile long line from beyond the horizon. so from 400 to 515 i made like a turtle and eased my way along the lines till i finally got to finish the errand. on a positive note, there was this cute girl (chinita pa naman, shux, *faint*) a few paces behind me making the whole hour and a quarter worth it, one way or another.

after that i decided to put off buying dragon age: origins, since it might take up my drawing time, and went straight home. and that, my dear audience, ends this unusually busy day of mine.

babershk~

 it (the title) doesn't really have much on the entry as a whole... but i did promise to kick up the ante a notch, so i'm just living up to my absurd promises even though i'm ruining the whole point. but hey, it tickled my creativity, and i bet it had you by the balls (if you had one... or two) for that brief (pun intended) moment.

so i was supposed to write this yester-night but the net started having hiccups and those, along with gaming frustrations in between, didn't really bring forth the literary spirit within. anyway, the net is alive and kicking now and with my writing powers tingling at the fingertips i'd better not waste the moment and keep the fans waiting! (as if may nagbabasa nito 'di ba. but hey i'm having fun making my own fun... so... yeah, whuppee fun. haha. )

so yesterday was tin's birthday bash. not quite the epic bash that the word tends to imply in a physical sense (moot celebratory population and all) but epic it still was with all the fun and joy that a bag of nips can bring (rainbows anyone?). but really, i never had that much fun in a long long time. i've always been telling nina, my confidant in everything and anything life, how much i miss everyone and how we should go out and do something, or anything, to keep the social ties from burning out. i mean not that they'd actually burn out, but you get the point.  anyway so we did, and it was better than i hoped for.

haha it sounds like i'm in this social abyss -- deprived, wanting, and desperate (at least to myself). and truly to some extent it is, but yesterday was so much fun (with so much food) that i left as satisfied as a pooh bear neck deep in a honey tree. i was thinking that maybe after hanging out with my friends that i'd be missing them and thinking about when we'd be able to go out again. it's social abyss SOP. but i clearly underestimated the power of plain old friendship. it's weird, in a refreshing morphine-induced-heaven kind of way. it could have just gone forever, us sitting there and hanging out, and i wouldn't have minded it if we did for all eternity. and even when we couldn't, i still didn't feel like my fun got spoiled. my social needs and welfare bank got it's monthly deposit and i genuinely felt like a million bucks.

on a snippet stories kind of note, we finally got to see tin's place. it wasn't big but she was settled in and doing fine so i guess it's ok. suportahan taka. it was interesting to learn more about people. seeing a part of her daily routine made me feel how late i am in the game of real life living and to think she's 2 years my junior (well now it's 1... gee i feel better already). my god. i live a too comfortable and screwed up life. i really need to get the gears oiled and checked. XD

anyway. more food awaited me once i hit my humble abode. pizza and pasta. like i haven't had enough of it from lunch and post-lunch. then mom finally arrived from china~♥ yay! moar chocolates for me. and if you didn't get your chance to sucker the resident candy man into giving you free treats, well at least now i'm restocked and ready for another run of endorphine charity.

i'm over doing it already so i'll end it here. but yeah. it was fun. :3

P.S.
there was this awkward talk about legs/feet last time. and i was laughing and flushing bright red in embarrassment, but in all honesty i didn't hear what the leg/feet thing was actually about. idiot. XD

oh and the title is actually in reference to the gift we gave tin. cute little thing really. we thought it fit the celebrant perfectly considering she's as pale as snow white and is generally considered to be an angel, until you unfortunately get to know her better. haha. *peace*

*update*
i finally looked up the leg/foot word in the urban dictionary. made me lol. 

 

 yesterday evening was a quite different from the usually boring and uneventful nights i tend to trudge through. my bro called and asked me if he could drag me along to help out one of our friends push his car. apparently the bloke parked his car on muddy field by the fishball vendor at the UP Vanguard -- not one of his best ideas considering the frequent rains. and yes to our complete and utter surprise we didn't foresee the immense possibility that he might, on the rare freak chance, get his car stuck in the mud. so yeah, he pulled out the friend card, and off we went to save the day.

but that really isn't what the title is all about. it was the car ride going there. i don't really get to do the catch-up talk with my bro often. he leaves early and works till late, so it doesn't really leave much room for anything aside from the standard hi's and hello's. anyway, the car. so he was doing the big bro thing and asking how things were. and it was ok, until he started asking about plans, and everything: where to work, what do you want to do, etc. and i didn't really have a definitive answer that i could give him with confidence. i never really thought about it much. i'm not the type. and yet when i asked him how things were with him, he gave me all sorts of plans and possibilities he had going. and i felt uncomfortable and somewhat insecure with my lack of a future.

thinking about it, i think it's my lack of ambition that's the reason why it seems my life is isn't really going anywhere. it's like i can't look past what where i am now. not that i can't i just don't really have the passion or reason to do so. i know i should, but i just don't feel like it. i can't really fully reason it out, but the best way i can explain it to myself would be that i simply don't care right now. and that lack of vision and motivation is what binds me to this stagnancy.

i'm trying to think of something to pull this ending up. but right now, i can't really think of anything witty to throw at you. so i guess i'll just leave it with a 'till next time' thing. babershk.
 

 yeah i know i'm bad with titles, but technically speaking this one fits the bill perfectly as titles go. boring... but yeah i'll just make up for the blandness next time. and so, go forth we shall (moving on? corny no. wala ako maisip eh. haha. yes yes, more corn than iowa, i know.)

so i've been hitting the books with ardent dedication as of late, trying to really absorb the 250 characters i'm currently required to know by heart for the sankyuu test. and i realize, as history has taught me numerous times before, i suck at memorization. i was bad at it in grade school history class, i still hide in shame when i forget names and birthdays, and i will be bad on anything memoriy-ish from here on and hence forth. it just requires too much practice to get these things into your system and i am in contrast an 'understanding' kind of learner which, picks off from a different set of skills. i a hear-it-once-or-twice-and-i-get-it kind of person. i don't memorize equations, i usually derive them or create weird ways to find the answer i need. true, i can still use some of these analytic skills on kanji: mixing and matching the radicals to help me associate the meanings, linking the radicals to the onyomi and kunyomi pronunciations, etc. but beyond any skill or talent you may have, you need practice. practice makes perfect. and for lazy people like me, practice doesn't really come in as a ready option. but what the hell, i'm trying. XD

i finally decided to finally push through with my plans to finally get a new haircut. finally. after like a gazillion times to telling myself that for like... oh, years. i've done my research and everything: tony and jackey's sm north, short simple but relatively stylish hair sported by ueno juri in last friends -- may require hair straightening but god forbid that it should come to that. i'm still hesitant about getting my hair straightened. i like my wavy hair, and i although i have an abundant share of the vane streak i take enough pride in what i naturally sport to want to change it. that and i might risking looking like a fag by accident in case the plan goes down under. and so... yeah. i'm scared XD. but i'll push through with it. may the fashion gods save me from turning into a metro abomination. 

today leaned more on the irresponsibly negligent, indulgent, and by-gosh-who-gives-a-crap. i forgot to set my alarm, although i did wake up at the blessed hour of 630, but failed miserably in trying to pry myself away from the deadly and sinfully pleasant clutches of my bed (i blame the cool morning rain and the warm blanket). i gained consciousness 2 and a half hours later, in the dream-jerking shock of realizing i might have slept in a little bit too much, which turned out to actually be an oh-shit-it's-nine-already. very unpleasant, but it gets the nerves into gear. however it all goes to waste, both my sleeping-in and nastily waking up, because i decided not to go to jap class and just do the home study full review i've been meaning to pull off.

studying kanji is frustrating stuff. really. it is. it FOREVER resides on your short term memory banks and yet never finds its way into the good graces of your long term storage where it's supposed to be. you study the character a week before, hear the word a week later, and you'll most likely be going "...wut?" for minutes (or even hours) trying to pick out those set of squiglly set of lines out of your brain. it's so hard to actively pull it out of your head without any form of stimulation or clue as to what you're looking for. for example looking at some characters and remembering what they are is a completely different ball game from being told to write stuff out of the blue. the latter is a billion times more difficult. i should be taking comfort in knowing that my nihongo god only knew roughly 100 characters when he took the test which required him to know 300 and passed it at 98%, but meh you have to start on it eventually. so yeah, i'll take the advice, but i don't have to like it. *dies from brain cell meltdown*

so trying to save a few neurons from an early grave, i took my friend's advice and took a break. maybe a few minutes or so would do me good. not really in the mood for gaming i decided to read one of the books my older bro was nudging into my free time, The Dresden Files by Jim Butcher. i couldn't find the first book (or maybe my bro didn't really have it yet) so i decided to begin the adventure a little bit ahead with the second. 5 hours later i put down the novel wanting to pick up the next one.

the book was simply awesome. it's about this rugged, broke, and amusing wizard who lives in modern day chicago and gets by as a consultant to the special investigations unit of the chicago police department, battling meanie mages, demons or whatever the nevernever decides to pull out of its dark depths. i was laughing (with quick checks on the bedroom door to save me the embarrassment from passersby) at all the witty remarks, loving the action, and relishing the beauty of its fiction. it really is a good book, and it will really weave its magic on you if you let yourself indulge in it. highly recommended if you're into fiction, or even just want a good entertaining read. can't wait to read the next book in the series, at least after i finish reviewing a few dozen kanji... XD.

to be able to pour your thoughts into something readily is such a pleasant convenience to have. maybe it's because of the increasing lack of people to talk to and hang out with that i'm being forced to write, but honestly it gives me a different kind of comfort and relief. things you can't really say properly, but things you can take your time to think about and layout before you in words. words you don't use in real life in arrangements that would would be excessively overboard when said, yet fits perfectly in the empty spaces of the digital slate. it's freedom coupled with good doses of fun. and i'd be darned if you can't see how much fun i'm having here.

but this is already a bit too long for the usual stuff, so i'll end it here. till next time then. babershk~

 so just this monday morning i went out to help in the relief efforts for the victims of ondoy. although UP has alot of organizations wanting to help out i was a bit irked by the fact that they choose to remain individual in their efforts to help out rather than band together as on collective group to focus the efforts of the University. CSSP, office of the chancellor, Bio -- you name it. it's like spreading the work force, each group only being able to do so much with the little human resources they have and the amount of relief goods they'll be recieving from each of their individual circles. and so not wanting to get disappointed and potentially irritated i set off for ADMU instead.

i was hesitant at first in truth. although i do want to help out physically going there alone, with no friends to keep you company, is lonely and awkward specially for introverts like moi. shy kung shy kumbaga. but work had to be done and help was badly needed (or so i thought, daming tao kasi talaga eh) so pushing my apprehesions aside i went anyway.

there were a LOT of people to say the least. i saw a few familiar faces (and that's a big thing considering the only people i know from ateneo are from my GS and HS days) and was fortunate enough to find marco (yay i had company) who was with a friend from work. the main thing that grabbed my attention other than the amount of people present, which truly is amazing to say the least, is the sheer amount of resources coming in minute by minute -- food, clothes, volunteered vehicles, toiletries, medicine -- you name it they have it. granted it is a mainly middle-upper class community, but still the influence and capability of Ateneo as an institution, never ceases to amaze me. corporate sponsors, proper organization for logistics, the sheer amount of cars, and the power to draw in so many people to donate and help out is just amazing.

however looking volunteering in ateneo does show you another aspect of the work force that you wouldn't normally expect in situations like this -- that being the who and how many people are helping out. to me, in all honesty, to see so many people helping out specially the youth of the middle and even more so, those from the upper classes of society is just... well, weird. the fact that these people would go to volunteer and do dirty, sweaty, hard labor in their saturday night best just proves the point even more. and although it probably is because of the range of people affected by the typhoon, affects all classes of society with equal intensity that the youth can finally see first hand the reality of it all, i still cannot take credit away from them even though some of these people's intentions might not be as pure as the elitist me would prefer. the fact is, they are out here helping out and their help be it in any form is very much welcome in this time of need.

on my part, i didn't really do much. i, along with 8 or so other people, made a stack of 1000 food packs to be put into standby for dispatching, helped out in transferring goods in the assembly lines, helped pack clothes into boxes, among other things -- always being thrown around after each minor job. it was tiring stuff, but fun. sabi ko nga kay marco 'parang cheer rally lang ah' noting the atmosphere and morale of the people present.

day 2 wasn't too different. this time i went there alone, which was a bit tough on my part because the only thing that would be keeping you there to stay and help would be only be your sheer will to help. and although i really did want to help, not having any friends to keep me comfortably rooted in that community of people was hard XD. more so that i'm practically an outsider and not really as gregarious as i would have liked to be. in any case i left at around lunch time after doing pretty much the same random stuff as the day before.

today i'll take a break from volunteer work. mainly because the 'helping-out-alone' experience was just really taxing to me psychologically and emotionally. lol. but yeah, really, i'd rather help out again with someone i know so that i wouldn't feel that alienated and would be able to stay longer to help out.

we still got the week left. let's do et.

ay, ay! i'm not sure if it will still hold true for the rest of the week, but there was truly an unhealthy excess of people helping out in the more known locations like ABS-CBN and ADMU to the point that people were just hanging out (in ADMU) and trolling the court grounds (which was one of the reasons why i left early yesterday -- feel ko sagabal na lang ako). so i guess helping out in other locations where more man power might be needed would be more productive for everyone. ge babershk na talaga. ciao.

 so kakatapos ko lang ng series ng proposal daisakusen. kailan ko lang siya talaga na download at pinanood lahat, sa totoo lang kakatapos ko lang mapanood talaga ang huling yugto at hanggang ngayon medyo sumisinghot pa ako ng uhog at nagpupunas parin ng luha sa kakaiyak. haha, nakakahiya talaga kasi naka headphones ako sa harap ng pc, hindi pa ako talaga nagaayos mula sa pagkagising ko, mukha talaga akong yagit, at eto ako umiiyak na hindi mo maintindihan. hindi siya isang bagay na makikita mo sa akin talaga -- ang pag iyak. hindi ko naman sinasabing manhid akong tao pero, madalas tingin ko sa sarili ko mas madalas na hindi ako nagpapa-apekto at naaapektuhan ng mga bagay bagay kaysa sa oo. minsan parang naiisip ko tuloy sa sarili ko parang manhid ko na tipong nakakabastos na, yung para bang wala kang pakialam sa nangyayari sa iba, pero ganon lang kasi talaga.

pero ewan ko ba. parang pasok na pasok talaga ung mga bagay bagay na nangyayari. well siguro naman kaya siya sumikat kasi maraming bagay na nasa kwento na universal talaga ang mga issues na gusto nyang sagutin. pero nakakatawa lang na parang maraming tao ang may pinagdaanang ganito, na makakarelate ka kahit papaano sa mga nangyayari. ang galing lang. ung madadala ka talaga ng dorama sa kabuuan nya. tipong marinig ko lang ung piano ng theme song ng series, nadadala na ako agad -- as in nahihila talaga ako.

nakakatawa lang din na minsan kailangan pa talaga ng mga dorama para marealize ng mga tao ang kailangan nilang gawin. pero bobo din naman kasi ang mga tao kahit na may utak sila. kailangan may bonggang pangyayari pa para matulak nila ang sarili nilang gawin ang dapat. or para lang maconvince sila na ang matagal nilang iniisip na sagot, ay ang sagot talaga. nakakatawa lang. well at least na entertain ka na sa pinapanood mo at may natutunan ka rin kahit papaano. haha. ang wierd lang talaga. matagal na kasi akong nakakapanood ng mga dorama pero mas anime kasi ang hilig ko. ang wierd lang na mas nafefeel ko tong mga bagay bagay dahil totoo tao pinapanood ko at hindi lang mga drawing. un na siguro talaga ang pagkakaiba ng media nila.

anyway. maganda ung series. promise. kung di mo pa napapanood panoorin nyo. as in. kung may oras lang ako kahapon talaga mula ep 3 hanggang ep 11 tinapos ko na sya. pero ung bimonthly meeting naming magpipinsan kasi nasaktong kahapon plus birthday din ni sandy, kapatid ni jaime, tapos non kaya nawalan ako ng oras manood. anyway, maganda. promise. manood kayo. lol.

babershk.

P.S.
may special pa pala sila pero d ko pa pinapanood kasi mahirap nang umiyak ako ng todo todo hahahaha. nahihiya na ako para sa sarili ko eh. mamayang gabi na lang pag medyo tulog na mga tao :P

 i was surprised to see that it's been 2 weeks (or so) since my last entry, and inspired by the spirit of blog diligence and simply just wanting to get the counter back to nill here i am doing the internet god's blessed work -- giving you useless but relatively entertaining info. so, updates.

well something significant happened to me socially. i lost a friend by choice for the first time, practically at least, since direct contact has been banned completely. i can't really say precisely why, but it's mainly my inability to accept the person as they are in their entirety -- good and bad. to you the faults tend to float up to the surface, even though everything is completely innocent. well maybe that bad trait really is at work and you just can't stop a vein from bursting, or you're just tainting the words with your second guessing and overly analytic social skills. either way it's not working. it makes me feel like it's bringing out the evil me that i don't want to see. the person deserves better, so here we are in isolation hoping it works out for the best.

the past week has been punctuated with parties day after day. well not literally, but it practically amounts to the same thing.

monday (the last national holiday) was my cousin's birthday. madison grill in greenbelt 5 was the place to be at 630pm. a bit of a transportation crisis for the navarro kids, but we made it relatively on time filipino time-wise at around 7pm. posh place with a 4 course dinner and good wine to go with it. it was the first time i've eaten a dory and it was definitely odd but interesting to know that our finding nemo star is posh-worthy for classy dining. small talk and a bit of catching up, and we're bouncing back home at around 930pm.

friday was district 9 day with friends. good movie, and surprisingly good acting from a first time lead actor (didn't take note of his name). the biped was a complete geekasm -- very awesome -- and it made me want to draw RF stuff again, if at least till a night's sleep mulled the gusto by morning.

saturday was hell. originally we planned it to have josine and meme's late birthday bash with a bit of cine europa viewing and lunch to go with it. supposedly we were meeting at 1000am, and i being the trying-too-hard-don't-want-to-dissapoint person that i am, i made an effort to be extra punctual and arrived to the second (well, minutes actually but second just makes you empathize with me more LOL) -- 10:03 to be exact. everyone else practically arrived between 11:20 and 100pm. great. really. very very frustrating and infuriating. anyway, they arrived late (malamang 'di ba) for the movie, so we "early" people decided to just settle down for lunch instead. was fun hanging out with the barkada again, but circumstances pushed me to leave early. a friend had a house blessing and post-grad graduation party in las pinas for lunch that same day. since it's been 2 years since i last saw these people, and with my other friends screwing up my mood and alotted time-frame, i decided to leave early on the first party and arrive late on the second. i met up with carlos in the shaw station and 2 hours later, under commuting stress and lame tv programming choice in the bus ride, we arrived at ix's place. good food, booze, karaoke and old but familiar faces. it was a bit awkward for me at first but it turned out to be entertaining in its own way.

sunday was my sister's birthday. had the same people from last monday's party come over, with a slightly less fancy but more homey feel to the celebration since we were having it at home. watched kimmy dora later that night after much coercion from my cousins, which turned out to be a bad call since the movie sucked imo. waste of time.

i wasn't able to go to class last monday, which turned out to be a bad call because when i went to nihongo class the following day we apparently were having a big test that very moment. clueless and with close to zilch stock knowledge. whupee. taena. as in. well anyway it goes to say that i bombed that one in epic proportions. 

so now... well, things are ok i guess. oh, i've been watching this j-dorama series hirayama sensei introduced to us in class. the title is suika, and it's a pretty good drama, comedy, slice of life series. i'd give it a 8/10. watch it!

my creative juices and literary wit has just been drained completely (obvious naman ata LOL, nagiging dull na mga sentences ko) so i guess i'll end it here. mas sanay lang ako mag hop from english to tagalog much like in casual conversations, although masaya din magsulat na ingles lang. anyfoo babershk~

 matagal ko nang pinagpapaliban itong pagsusulat ng update, sobrang tamad lang kasi talaga. marami na kasi nagaganap na may masusulat at maibabahagi pero pagkabukas ko na ng website ng blog ko... parang nawawalan na ako ng gana. isa na rin yun sa mga bagay bagay na nagaganap siguro, parang nawawalan na ako ng gana uli. parang last year lang ah, haha. emo month nga talaga ang august.

so, mga naganap...

kumuha ako ng entrance exam form sa la salle para kay micmic nung QC day last week. hassle. umalis ako ng mga 9 nakarating ako dun mga 11ish. tapos kung san san pa ako napa-ikot at pinalakad kasi strict sila dun sa la salle, at ang layo nung brother whatever na building sa vito cruz. anyway pagka kuha ko ng form naisip kong yayain si nina mag lunch kasi on the way naman sya pauwi. so naglunch kami sa ortigas. chika chika. napabili pa ako ng dri-fit na shorts at shirt kasi sale. impulse splurging. well kailangan ko din naman. tapos nag eiga sai ako nung gabi, memories of tomorrow ung movie. maganda sya, sana panoorin nyo pag may chance kayo. galing ni ken watanabe mag act. saka ung asawa nya magaling din, nagdebate pa nga kami kung sya si kamome diner girl, kamukha nya kasi super. pero later on malalaman din naming hindi sya nung sinearch ni mabel.

nag movie marathon kami nung thursday ni suzie saka ung 2 nyang officemates si sarah at si mabel. UP muna tapos time traveler's wife. SUPER ganda ng UP pag sa 3D. alam mo ung mga 3D na mga picture na medyo hologram looking. para kang nakatingin sa ganon na gumagalaw for 2 hours. nakaka-adik as in. para kang nakadrugs or something LOL. aliw talaga. tinatangal-tangal ko pa nga ung salamin ko para lang i check kung anong mahika meron sa pagiging 3D nya. wierd though kasi hindi blurred ung image pag d mo suot ung salamin. sa disneyland ganon eh, although granted sa disneyland tumatalon outside ng screen talaga ung mga pictures, sa UP parang nalilimit talaga sya ng borders ng frame. anyway. ung time traveler's wife maganda din. magandang romantic movie. napabili pa nga ako ng libro after namin manood ng cine hahaha. maganda din ung libro btw, kakatapos ko lang kahapon. mas kumpleto ung book, pero mas emotionally appealing ung movie. imo, you should enjoy both haha.

itong weekend lang na nakalipas lumabas ako kasama mga kaklase ko nung high school; overnight sa fontana care of mix. uuwi na kasi si beatson this friday so parang huling hirit na malakihan bago sya umuwi sa scotland. 8 kaming lalake (me, jace, kev, mix, manu, dar, pat, plep) tapos 2 na babae (jamie jace's gf, and ail a common friend ng mga college a-boys). sa totoo lang mej hesitant ako pumunta nung simula. malaki talaga kasi issues ko with feeling out of place. at itong mga a-boys na to, hindi sila ang crowd ko nung high school. i mean friend naman kayo at magkakaklase for 4 years and all that, pero alam mo un malaki parin chance na parang sabit lang ako sa gimik nila. good thing it turned out for the better though. it was surprisingly fun and very nostalgic. nakakamiss din talaga high school. masaya ung waterworks pool area ng fontana, nagenjoy ako sa wave pool saka dun sa river thing. masaya ung chikahan papunta, some people never change. natatawa ako dahil nung simula parang boys night out kasi late na dumating ung mga nanay ng gimik. sausage party raw LOL. d kasi ako talaga masyado nakaka boys night out dahil wala akong ganong crowd sa barkada ko, pero fun sya occassionally.  buti na lang din pumunta si jamie kasi kung wala sya wala kaming decent dinner (pinagluto nya kami ~♥). where would the lost a-boys be without their wendy :P.

so eto ako ngayon. tinatamad na namana ako sa buhay ko. ang dali ko talaga mag-sawa. kailangan ko talaga ng something new or at least panibagong motivation or mareinforce mga old motivations ko. kakainis. anyway babershk.

 so ayun surfing sa la union. my second time to go surfing and as before the plan was to leave manila at friday evening ,arrive in san juan on the wee hours of the night, stay for a day and leave before lunch time on sunday. the experience was a bit different this time because instead of just us cousins going out for the weekend, now we brought the whole entourage. and to spice things up, the recent typhon/hurricane/bagyo that just left luzon headed north west into taiwan and the waves going down south east into the bay area of san juan was nothing short of huge. of course it wasnt really extremely huge, maybe around an adult's height on average, but for noobs like us it was like facing attumen in blues.

the waves weren't that bad for surfing really, but they were intense. intense because the waves were faster and you really had to pick your pace up when paddling and making an effort to stand up and ride the waves. with huge waves covering most of the available coastline the space for the smaller more managable waves that broke closer to the shore didnt give you much time to ride them as they come by. plus the fact that with the big waves coming at you each and every time, the rest period between surfs is close to practically zero, pushing you to exhaustion real fast (at least compared to last time). in short, it was a learn fast or die fast kind of situation hahaha. fun.

so nung gabi naman ng sabaday, inom kwentuhan with the cousins. mej kulang kulang ang grupo kasi ung iba natulog ng maaga, ung iba naman may mga batang inaalagaan. kami lang nila ate lei, eiselle at kuya con ung talagang nagchikahan. nagbrownout pa nga nang may katagalan nung gabi, pero ayos lang kasi malupet naman ung posisyon namin sa may beach: masarap ung hangin, d naman talaga ganon kadilim, may sounds galing sa malupet na speakers ni dairy (boyfriend ni ate eiselle), at wine na dala nila ate nene. anyway, first time ko magkwento sa mga pinsan ko sa mga kwentong buhay ko. tahimik kasi ako talaga usually, lalo na kung harapan. mej nanginginig pa nga boses ko non haha, kabado eh. pero ok lang, naman. keri lang sya. mej nabuhay nga lang uli ung mga lumang issues sa utak ko. i mean hindi ko na sila iniisip, pero ngayong naalala ko parang nawalan uling credibility ung tao sa kwento ko. pero ewan ko ba, kahit na tinitingnan ko uli sya anew with their comments (at wala naman masyado c kuya con lang talaga matanong talaga) parang mahirap parin talaga gumawa ng perfect decision na kaya mong sundan 100%. ung alam mo bang tama talaga without any doubt. labo nya naman kasi talaga eh, as in. anyway. wag na magpa buwiset ng sarili. tapos ay tapos. haha. malas ko lang at kailangan ko ulitin ung kwento kina ate nene sa susunod na labas (next week). susme, hahaha sana un na ung huli. ayaw ko na syang buhayin pa uli.

anyway eto nakauwi na kami. maghahabol ako slight sa nihongo ko at nainspire magpaka-fit mas lalo. taenang mga surfer kasi yan, batak kung batak amp. parang proud naman ako sa progress ko, pero compared sa kanila parang walang pagbabagong naganap sakin hahahaha. asa kayo, darating din ako sa lebel na yan balang araw. dapat pag marunong na ako magsurf ng maayos ganon na katawan ko hahaha. pangako ko yan sa sarili ko lol.

anyfoo, babershk.

 

nagdecide ung tita, tito, and 2 cousins (anak ng tito) na magpunta sa wake ni cory kahapon. nakisama na rin ako kasi well wala naman akong gagawin talaga ng hapon, "this is being part of history", etc. and to cut the intro short, we went there.

pag dating namin dun the line was so effin long. first it extends from the front of the chapel on general luna and stretches to the front of PLM  takes the right corner and extends around 50 meters down the road before turning around completely and going all the way back to the front of the cathedral and beyond. sabi ng mga tao, during the time that we arrived, the end was at sta. cruz... and that's over the bridge na halos quiapo na ata. very long. we arrived at exactly 638pm on my watch, set foot on our end of the line at around 700 and we left the church at 1138. it was a 4 and a half hour wait for a 3 second glimpse (even less) of the democtratic hero.

i did want to pay my respects to cory aquino. and although i honestly don't know much about her term and governance, i thought that going there somehow i could realize the true significance of her deeds and role in the past 40 years. but really one of the reasons why i decided to go was because she was jiggy's lola. you could say it was the final push in making me decide to go and stand up for almost 5 hours for the 3 second finish. part to simply just be there and be part of history (selfish), and partly just wanting to pay my respects to someone important, and should be important to every filipino.

hay pero really when you get there it will make you think. people out there are kidding around, may mga highschoolers pang nangtritrip lang (ung biglang sisigaw lang sila to get attention tapos magtatawanan), and lot of people who aren't really taking things seriously. it's partly their fault partly the fault of the long line, you just can't help but be drawn out of your contemplative mood into the noise of the impatient and tired masses. and you really can't blame them. ikaw ba tumayo ka ng halos limang oras, pagod na binti mo, naulanan ka na ng onti, medyo gutom or uhaw, inaantok, baka pa nga nac-cr ka pa d ka lang maka-alis sa pila. and being all this, you enter hurriedly into the cathedral in a paced walk. and as you inch your way to the casket and finally get to see her and try to think of a small prayer, try to imagine her life and how she was, try to bring to life her memory, someone at the back says "lakad lang po tayo, pakibilisan". at un na. wala ka ring nagawa. i mean nakita mo and then... wala. all you could do was take in kung gaano ka drastic ng change sa appearance nya. super payat ng mukha, pati ung fingers halos buto't balat na lang. talagang maiisip mo kung gaano ka tindi ung last months of her life na kinakain ng cancer buong katawan nya. must have been hell. but it's like being cut off in mid-thought, and you trying to recover from that mental confusion, being slightly absent minded as you try to think and hold on to your thoughts while being dragged along with the line.

honestly d ko alam kung na-achieve ko ba ung purpose ko sa pagpunta dun. feel ko hindi. cguro masyado ko lang sineseryoso ung thing. i think i should have, and at least i know i tried to give her the respect that she deserves. it's just hard to do it given the circumstances. so would i say was it worth the 4 hour and a half wait, going hungry, tired and slightly drenched in rain? d ko rin alam eh, pero at least i know it wasn't a waste of my time.
 

 so nanood ako ng eiga-sai sa shang cinema 3 kahapon. dapat kasama ko sina nina lendl at dr manood, pero originally kasi plano nilang manood ng transformers 2. pero kasi sa loob loob ko, hindi naman ganon kaganda un so inimbita ko na rin sila manood na lang sa eiga-sai, maganda kasi ung palabas that evening --  ALWAYS: sunset on third street (iniisip ko kung bakit may dalawang 'day/sun' kanji dun sa title. pero nung nakita ko ung translation nagets ko na haha). pero kwento kasi sakin napupuno raw talaga sya, so dapat mga 1hour before pumunta na kayo at kumuha ng tickets. eh hindi pede kumuha ng ticket for other people, at hindi pede si nina ng 6 (7 ung start ng evening movie). so sabi niya transformers na lang raw sila. so although, pede ako magimbita ng ibang tao mej nahiya ako at nanood na lang ako magisa.

pinanood ko ung 430 movie, kamome shokudou (seagull diner), saka ung sa 700, ALWAYS. maganda sila pareho! as in, win. promise. putaenang bwiset lang ung katabi ko sa kamome pero maganda sya. light movie, na slice of life with splashes of comedy here and there. super charming pa ng bida na babae. magegets nyo pag makita nyo sya kumilos. i highly recommend. ay saka ung last line ng scene sa movie, haha magaling kasi i completely agree. irasshai~

ung ALWAYS mas "epic" na movie. highest grossing blockbuster sya sa japan sa year na pinalabas sya if i'm not mistaken, kaya sya ung parang "main event" movie ng eiga sai. fun sya, may comedy pero more of drama ang kwento. pero infairness napaiyak ako ilang beses sa movie ah. ahahaha. buti din pala wala akong kasama manood :P nakakahiya eh hahaha. basta panoorin nyo din to. promise. really really nice. saka narealize ko kamukha nga ng nanay ni william c koyuki. hahaha! ay saka cute ung babaeng helper na may punto. kansai ata un? d ko sure. nakakatawa pa dun (nihongo joke) ung name kasi nung babae mutsuko. kanji nya is 6 (mutsu) saka child (ko). 6th child kasi sya sa family kaya un pangalan. tapos tawag sa kanya sa movie roku-chan (6 din meaning) "roku ja nai, mutsuko desu...". haha cute. anyway. un lang. at least may pinatutunguhan nihongo ko haha.

saka masaya kasi may mga lines saka nakasulat na mas nagegets ko in the context ng pagkakasabi. minsan kasi hindi perfect ung translation, kaya mas may  "insight" ka sa sinabi pag nagets mo talaga ung nihongo. galing. nakakatuwa. mas nainspire ako mag-aral. haha.

anyfoo. babershk~

 may kaibigan akong parating kausap sa plurk na medyo napunta sa isang emo na kinalalagyan. feeling nya kasi masyado siyang nagsasaya sa buhay nya cguro. at pinipilit sya ng mundo na tumanda na, at maging responsableng mamamayan ng mundo, ika nga ng mga nakatatanda. tapos alam mo yun, the usual, nakakapressure, kailangan na magtrabaho, dapat maging super productive etc. tama naman sila, and believe me na-emo ako ng matagal dahil sa ganyang usapan, pero minsan kailangan mo rin sundan puso mo. kung puro mundo na lang iisipin mo, hindi ka rin mageenjoy. dapat may iwan ka rin para sa sarili mo. dapat balanced. pero syempre para sa akin parang hindi naman ako nagmomove on talaga sa buhay ko. gago kasi eh, taena. pero let's not get into it. wala kasing patutunguhan ang usapan. bawal ganyan, dapat paharap ang lakad.

so eto ok naman ako. bihira tong nageenjoy talaga ako sa klase. although feeling ko baka niro-romanticize ko lang sya. pero isa ito sa mga bagay na gusto ko talaga matutunan. alam mo un. willing effort kung kailangan. sa CoE kasi... ewan i mean may mga na-eenjoy naman akong mga klase. pero alam mo un. parang ang dami kong reklamo. puro reklamo i swear. tamad kasi ako. nagbibigay naman ako ng effort, pero alam mo un kung nageenjoy ka d ka naman talaga magiging emo reklamador d ba. kung may pede lang patunguhan careerwise tong nihongo puta, this is it. cguro mix ng IT saka nihongo haha. ay saka kung pede talagang ituloy to till JLPT 1 puta gagawin ko. any ideas how to mix that with earning money to be self-sustaining? hahaha.

ay so magiging busy na tong plurk friend ko, so mej mamimiss ko sya. may mga tao ka kasing parating kausap sa bawat medium of communication mo. nagkataon na lately sya ang aking kachika sa plurk. and wierd no? may mga tao talagang masarap kausap, lalo na online na super daling maging pranka at loose. well at least may mga bagong Y!M kachika na ako dahil parati silang online sa work. you win some you lose some.

ay masaya nihongo class namin. may calligraphy pa kami sa kanji class. saya. parang ang saya nya aralin. sana hindi ako tamarin magpractice sa bahay. para ka kasing nagdradrawing. artistic haha.

ay napanood ko transformers 2 kanina. ok lang. adrenaline rush lang sya. period. ganda ng mata ni megan fox.

cge yan na lang muna. babai.

 yesterday was one of the few times as of late that i've had epic fun. the day started out not that special with torrential rainfall ruining the morning, and mom asking me to drive her to pipe2 at central ave./road (dunno really how you should call that stretch of concrete) even when it was raining hard. good for me though that i had to pass by UP that day so she had my sister do her bidding *mwahahaha*. ninja moves for the win.

( i paid for my tuition... ) 

 couldn't think of a better title for the entry, but if titles are meant to give you an idea of what to expect, well then i think i got it right on the kisser. so... updates.

started watching K-ON! which is a slice of life, cutesy, band music kind of anime. it started along with the other spring season shows but i didn't bother to actually start with it since i was being elitist and wanted anime with more substance in them. and among the tens of possible prospects, only 1 satisfied my delicate palate -- Higashi no Eden (Eden of the East). anyway one of my buds, Wil, mentioned that K-ON! was pretty good and since i didn't really find a big catch for this season i said "what the hell" and decided to watch it anyway. he was right, it is pretty good haha. it's funny how the usual blend for these kinds of anime never gets old, and though on the surface it really is just the usual blend it isn't as boring and old as most people consider new anime from this genre to be. at in fairness ah, even if it is just the usual moe slice of life gig, it's pretty good at what it does and that's what makes people keep coming back for more.

i've been lifting weights the past weeks. though it's a bit of a on off thing due to overexertion, trying to get the right volume of reps, sets, and weight, and that IE8 run which i wanted to be fully rested for. anyway i realized how... out-of-the-blue/ impulsive/ what-i-feel-like-doing kind of a person i am. i don't really stick to my particular plan and follow the sets and reps i need to do. i just do what i think i should be doing, and to hell with real discipline and constant progress. doing what i can til i can't do it anymore, but not pushing myself beyond my limit -- it's an attitude that lacks ambition and i think that's who i am right now. a make-do so-so person. kinda sad actually. hope i find something to get me going soon. inspiration and motivation are hard to come by these days.

oh i gained 7 pounds the last time i weighed in. yay~ from 144 lbs. to 151 lbs. woot for weights, jogging, and proper eating habits (yeah right... proper eating habits... lol). 

i've been drawing again lately. mainly because i'm getting tired of playing.

gonna study jap and take jlpt 3 on october. wish me luck. it's one of the things i'm really excited about this sem.

that's all for now. ja ne~

babershk~

 i'll make this short. or at least try to, because i know i have this tendency of doing long entries when i get into the mood of sharing. anyway, it'll be the 2 day cebu thing with today's exhausting afternoon.

cebu was ok, a bit uneventful really, but it was somewhat fun. in truth the reason why i decided to go was because i had nothing better to do and was looking for something different from my usual summer days. it mainly was a gastronomic trip for me. lechon, chicharon and dangit. mroe of the lechon though, that was the main thing. my older bro and i were talking about anthony bourdaine's trip to cebu and that epic whole lechon that was specially prepared for him. and damn was it mouth watering to watch. really. and so with that lechon as our main goal and mission, we set out for cebu. haha.

baboy talaga promise. day 1 we had lunch at this chinese buffet at the hotel, (crown regency hotel... was ok the rooms were pretty good). my bro and i went to the market to buy dangit, and went to the cathedral and magellan's cross for a bit of sight seeing. went back after a few hours, and slept it off till dinner. dinner we ate at the golden ca... something. it was very nice, and quite cheap for something so good. that became the general trend really, things were really cheaper in cebu specially good food. we had sinigang na lapu-lapu (sarap, maasim na maanghang), sisig, baked scallops, and chicharong bulaklak (taena sarap promise. nakamamatay pero... damn hahaha). to emphasize the point that i was really, really stuffing myself when i woke up the next day, i was burbing. yeah... wtf.

i had very little for breakfast, and i went to explore the place while buying lechon to take home (alejo's lechon. sarap promise), as well as a few packs of chicharon. the taoist temple was nice. made me wonder why they had a taoist temple in cebu, because it wasn't something one would usually associate with the place. but when i learned it was placed inside this posh village called beverly hills, it made sense. rich chinese people and a taoist temple. so anyway i decided to have an early lunch (double cheese burger meal at mcdo) but kuya and ate fritzy (mom's right hand at work) hadn't had lunch yet, and with kuya insisting we experience the best cebu had to offer we ate lechon at CnT's. after that it was an early trip to the airport for our return flight. 1 hour later we were in manila, and after 2 hours on the road we were crawling at the front porch (nakakapagod promise).  we even had lechon for dinner (pork again grabe na cholesterol). and i even had lechon for lunch today (wtf talaga). so i really had to do at least do something that required some movement today, else i'd be dying from pork and inactivity.

i had a 30min jog, and did some weights. i've been reading this book about muscles and body building (sounds "big" but yeah that's the official word for it) and though i've tried a few of the exercises the past weeks i haven't really commited to really training and working for this religiously... till today. and all i can say is... damn. taena nakakapagod. promise. my upper body is really weak. and even when i did some lower abs stuff... i was really fighting to finish that 25 reps 5 sets thing. all i could do was 12-13 reps and i quit after 3 sets. wtf. but yeah, it's a start. let's see how things'll be after 4 weeks.

that's all for today. babershk~
 

 wow it's been 9 weeks since my last post, haha. i've been meaning to make one really, but there were... some things which prevented me from doing so. anyway, i'm in the mood right now so i'll write about yesterday.

my sister's been talking about this excellent burger place in ortigas/shaw for the past week, so we decided to go eat out for dinner and head there. my mom and sis were planning on watching BFF (sharon cuneta), which of course the boys of the family would gladly pass up the opportunity to watch so we decided to just meet up at the burger place.

we left early since my older bro was already hungry (parati naman eh lol) and arrived there around 20 mins earlier than planned. we ordered the angus beef with fries. i got this pale australian black ale to go along with the meal, same with my dad, and my older bro got a bottle of heineken (tama ba?). si mic nag iced tea lol. hahaha. d pa kasi pede eh lol.

anyway the burger was effin AWESOME. sarap promise. especially with the honey mustard, few taps of tabasco, and voila~ a burger to die for. and the fries... *tear* it was epic! not much with the salt, but it had freshly ground pepper to really give a burst of flavor. the beer was too pale though. hindi masyado malasa. the san mig premium malt is way way better. ung heineken ni kuya masarap naman raw, so i decided to get that one after i finished my bottle.

just when we were done, my mom and sis arrived. and apparently our 2 cousins joined them watching the film so, yay~ si ate eiselle d kumakain ng beef so inorder nya mushroom burger. masarap naman raw. the rest got angus beef burgers as well. c kuya naman gutom parin pero not that much, so i decided to get half of what he's getting. he was all smiles. haha.

so we ordered a philly cheese steak, filli size (filipino size serving lol). he got a corona extra (beer) for his drink. the waiter put a slice of lemon at the tip of the bottle, and when we asked what it was for he said "kasama po yan". which basically translates to "hindi ko po talaga alam, kayo na bahala sa diskarte nyo dyan". lol. i got a bottle of heineken. the steak was good, but damn was the jalapeno hot. nuclear even. tapos busog ka pa, so d ka makainom para mawala ung anghang. tapos iniinom mo pa beer lol. pero masarap naman sya, ung heineken. at par-ish with san mig premium.

pero grabe, i haven't eaten a meal that big in a very long while. ramdam ko to the max ung busog. *ugh*

so anyway i'll be leaving for cebu for a day tomorrow. i'll be crashing my mom's business trip. sana masaya, although i'm not really the adventurous one when it comes to exploring urban areas. buti na lang kasama c kuya. haha.

cge yan na muna. babershk~

 la naman really. school is hell. daming ginagwa i swear, pero at least natapos na at last 115 mp3. although i sacrificed 2 design problems in 54 for it. i got to finish those before monday. god that will be a pain in the ass. not to mention all the other academic shiz i have to trudge through. good luck with that. but you know oddly enough im quite positive about the whole thing. i mean im not in panic or in a huge emo fit about wanting the sem to end (just ranting occassionally). you could go so far to say that im *sort of* in the mood to go into acad mode. wierd. haha. probably because i don't have any pressing vice that i have to pull me away from the things i need to do.

mom said the might go on a business trip to japan this May. and she's saying if she does she's going to bring me with her! ZOMG! i seriously hope that plan pushes through :3

lately i've been coming into terms with actually getting into a highly technical job. probably because i've been programming for like 2 days for our 115 MP. granted im not an excellent programmer, but i think im skilled enough and have enough will to last for 6 months to try it out. i think. XD

oh since mom said we might be leaving in may for that trip, i have april and may as vacation/job hunting months! i probably will go part time during that period or something. any ideas where i can get decent part time jobs? like as a tutor (although i doubt it since it's summer) or the like. any idea will be welcome. :3

that's it for now i guess. babershk~

 kahapon talaga super stressed ko. parang ang daming gagawin PARIN, after weeks of slaving for my acads parang napapalitan lang sya ng gagawin each week. nakakapagod talaga. parang napuno na ako. para akong nag 198 uli na hindi isang bagay lang iniisip ko, maraming bagay na iba iba all the time. tae talaga. plus the fact na may mga irl stress pa ako last week, na kahapon lang naayos. hayz, nakapagpaiyak pa ako ng tao. nakakapagod talaga. alam mo un holiday kahapon pero super pagod na stressed talaga feeling ko na tinatamad din na wala akong nagawa.

at least ang feeling ko today mej ok na. may gana na uli ako magpagod para sa acads. ajah na lang uli.

 so hinihintay ko si em, 198 groupmate ko last sem and 54 labmate ngayon sem, mag online kasi may tanong ako sa 54 design problem 1. kaya lang tagal nya magonline at wala na akong magawang iba so magsusulat na lang ako. daming naganap last week sa totoo lang. so ill try to make brief (sana nga maiksi lang) recollections of the past days.

pinaka masaya ung mt. pico de loro. umakyat ako dun with Loyola Mountaineering people last last weekend (jan31 - feb1). super saya promise. sarap sa peak. ibang feel talaga ng pace pag nasa bundok ka. parang no rush. petiks lang, chat with friends etc. saya. sana maulit. ay saka plus the fact na kagrupo ko crush ko *kyaaaa~* hahaha. enjoy.

nung monday... nagpunta akong quiapo. namili ng 44 lab mats for the dc motor. interesting place. parang sarap bumalik para lang umikot ikot kung ano meron dun. baka may makitang astig, hehe.

nung tuesday, interview sa makati. was stupid and fun. stupid because apparently nalaman ko na lang sa dulo ng interview na parang call center job pala ino-offer nila. fun kasi joke time ung exam, feeling ko naglalaro lang ako. at least d ako nastress. good testing grounds na rin kung gaano ako kacomposed sa interviews etc.

wed... d ko maalala. ah post climb. nagpunta akong ateneo nung gabi for the post climb evaluation. d ko nakita crush ko sa post climb, although sumama sya saglit nung sa dinner after. sayang. haha. 

thurs... 2 na exam. d ako naka-aral sa ms1 exam ko. nung unang exam din naman d ako nagaral pero apparently nasa top scores ako non. lolz. benta talaga un. anyway, mamemorization apparently ang exam 2. i did ok i guess. pero not as well as the first exam for sure. ung 2nd exam for the day was ee 225. putaena. un na ang best description ng exam sa 225. and lahat kaming nasa klase na un all agree on that one. haha.

friday. deadline ng me3 sa coe113. nagawa ko naman. nagising ako ng maaga, tapos nagcode at nagdocu. maganda docu ko~ haha. expected din kahit papaano kasi mahilig ako magsulat at magkwento sa pagsusulat. anyway, mukha namang ok ung docu ko nung binigay ko kay maam. nagpunta pa akong ateneo para isoli ung pack na hiniram ko for the climb. super traffic. as in. nagdala pa naman ako ng kotse. roadtrip sa traffic lolz. anyway, d ko nabigay kay semi-crush ung pack ko, pero nandun naman c john kaya naka-alis din ako agad kasi i was running late for my 4pm class.

saturday. exam sa coe 115 ng 7am. hindi rin ako nakaaral masyado. nagising ako ng 430 at dun lang nakasimula mag-aral. ok naman ung exam. mabusisi lang talaga mga tanong kaya kinapos karamihan sa oras. may careless mistakes din dahil mej nagmamadali ka. bad trip. anyway. at least tapos na for the week.

so tapos na ako magsulat at wala pa c em. hahaha. cge moving on to other things. babershk~